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What an exceptionally lousy week this was.  But as is usually the case, any good news is followed by greater bad news.  The good news is I managed to get first page google results for two pages.  One of which is not a money making page but still.  The other page was designed to be monetized but I made a mistake when selecting it choosing broad over phrase.  Oh well.  That's not even the bad news.  I'm not going to talk about the bad news because it'll just make me wanna jump into the nearest body of water more.  I've taken this weeked off from website shenanigans mostly.  I made a new site over the course of the week and I can't find it on google though.  I don't have any good ideas right now.  Finding keywords to match products and make these sites is hard.

More arm rest than cat

Chugging along

Sup.  I just thought I'd check in.  My whole making monies on the intertubes campaign is still going on.  It is really going on.  Just not making money yet, the most vital part lol.  There are so many steps, and I'm a poor learner.  Aye, I think I've always had some sort of learning disability, nothing major but enough to give me free study hall type periods during high school.  I just don't absorb information as easily as most people do.  So I usually have to rely on tricks and different ways of figuring things out.  On the plus side I'm better at showing people how to do stuff and explaining it in different ways until they understand.  If I can get this shit to work just a little bit, that's all I need.  It will give me all the confirmation I need and then I will be on my way to mastering it.

I have been using lots of different web services and tools, stuff that I want to use often enough that I'd like it to be available in icon form on my firefox.  So I used to have about 6 or 8 links up there, now I have over 20 I think.  I made the room by removing all the title so now I have to recognize everything by the favicon.  And there were a few sites that didn't have any, including my own.  My homepage, dimipapa.com while I don't keep it up there because I visit it often or even update it often but it is a very low resource site.  What I mean is it loads fast because it's just a few pictures and text.  So when my internet is being super slow I like to click on that to see how long it takes to load and it gives me an idea if it's my connection, that particular website, or my pc hogging all my resources.  However I had a few frequently visited sites that had no favicons either.  So I had to figure out how to make them, google helped me out, it usually does.  I followed the instructions but it wasn't working for dimipapa.com, so then I tried it for afternoontiger.com another website I started this one is also just for fun though and topic oriented unlike dimipapa.com.  I don't know how it worked or what has to update but it didn't work on either.  But then a couple days later it did.  Even of my crap host angelfire site dimipapa.com.  I kind of like the favicon I made for afternoontiger.com not so much dimipapa.com but hey I can tell which website is what now  for the remaining sites that had no favicon I just grouped them with other such links, being for entertainment or utility.  If I can actually start making some decent money like this there are more than a few people I'd like to teach how to do the same.

Lazy cat.. is lazy

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I call this one Snoopy

Looking to get out of the food industry

Ya'know being a baker is.. crumby.  Oh yeah sure the dough may not be too terrible but I knead more.  Eh.. eh heh.. baker humor you see, aren't I on a roll?  Okay that joke just expired, let's move on.  At the end of July this year raises were given out.  Across the whole company regardless of position so long as you hadn't received any other raise in the previous six months.  The company itself is actually doing really well, and to celebrate their success they decided to cut raises in half, make it nearly impossible to receive full bonus while at the same time making the bonus smaller for the most part and get rid of all but two of the time and a half holidays.  I wondered what they would have done if we weren't doing so well, they probably would have killed us.  In short when I saw my raise two words came out of my mouth "cheap bastards".  It was the second smallest raise I ever received in my life, the first was when I was a teenager.

Well it stirred something in me.  I don't know what it was really.  Quite frankly my life is crap, and has been crap for years.  I was resigned to failure and just waiting for it to finally finish me off in one of many potential and still very probable ways.  Dare I say, I hoped it would.  So it was strange that I cared at all.  Maybe it was just a little too much insult to add to injury, which begot some sort of perfect emotional storm.  Or maybe I still have some shred of pride left buried under an avalanche of self loathing and defeat.  But opening that check registered a blip on the care-o-meter.  Then next few days it simmered on low.  Mostly I was just disenchanted, or better to say more disenchanted.  But then it became a roiling boil.  Apathy became anger, resignation became rage.  Basically something like this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gT9ue7-yG1k

Of course I knew still that I was a mess physically, or maybe more of a wasteland.  My mental state was for sure bordering on schizophrenic as well.  Plus I didn't have any good skills, job's like guys with skills.  I doubted I could find anything better paying, nor did I have the fortitude to handle a second job.  So I started looking online for simple ways to try and make a supplemental income.  I did this everyday, and I still do it everyday.  And I found some.  Some more promising than others.  Internet marketing or affiliate marketing being the one I thought held the most promise.  You see I may bake, but I'm really not a baker.  I am a basic tech geek.  Even when I was in practice though my skills not optimal in any category.  And now more so, but I can also write a little, and even make a little artwork.  All are skills I can draw upon in affiliate marketing.  Many things have I been attempting to learn, and slow has been my progress.  The more I learn the less I know.  It get's harder, this is not easy.  But at the same time the difficulty gives me hope that this is something real and attainable should I continue my quest to learn it.  My goal is to not have to be a baker anymore by around this time next year.  Everyday I try to do a little and learn a little and my days off are spent almost entirely in front of a computer trying to figure this stuff out.  Wish me luck.